Why can't she see?
Who she was
Who she could be
And what she has become.
Why can't she see?
She is lover
She is beautiful
And people do care.
If only...
She knew
She saw
She felt.
But its the past that's...
Holding her back
Making her cry
Kicking her while she is down.
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She tries to hide her eyes
So she can blink away her tears
She feels like she is walking on what used to be her heart
Now its shattered into a thousand peices
And it just makes her cry harder
Till there is no way to hide her tears
And she can no longer fight the feelings she has bottled up inside
She falls to her knees
Still trying to stay strong
But the pain of loss consumes her.
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The feeling of guilt slowly rising up, it suddenly changes to sorrow. Stomach starts to ache brain freezes up; you only want to repeat the words of shame and sorrow. See your happiness just in arms reach, you push it away, scream no, it goes away you lay there, still on the kitchen floor crying your eyes out, sudden emotion changes again, you feel proud of what you did! You stand tall, shoulders high, smile on your face and away you go happy as ever but never to speak of the awful pain locked inside.
__________________________________________________________________________ You build me up,
Then break me down,
Your nice to my face,
But a bitch behind my back,
You say your here to stay,
Then get up and walk away,
You say we are best friends,
But then you treat me like i'm dirt,
But over all i'm the stupid one for staying this long and putting up with all your moods, lies and plain old bullshit.
Now i don't give a damn what you say or think about me,
I don't care what you do,
Your not my mother and you certainly do not own me,
From now on i'm me and who I want to be,
And you can go jump in a lake if you think i'm changing for you ever again cos all it causes is hurt, pain and confusion!
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She's lying in bed late at night, can't go to sleep can't close her eyes. Pictures of you flow through her mind. She tries to hide the pain that slowly filles her heart, turning blue close to black. Beating slow letting blood flow. She finds a new low that takes her to the ground, breaking his heart. You may as well know how it came to a start. Long story she says, short story the truth..... You know she'll never say or speak a single word. But you still wish she would.
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once so close,
now apart,
separated by a sea of people.
clinging to the past,
a memory if i may,
thinking of what we could have made last,
dwelling on what we used to say.
standing in the rain,
so no one sees my tears,
trying to stay sane,
for all the approaching years.
wishing it weren't true,
still want to stay close to you,
always try to be your friend,
trying to make it never end.
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as i lay awake at night,
thoughts come crawling through my mind,
thoughts of the one and only you.
some are confusing,
some are a lie,
and some are truthful in a way.
i keep our memories,
protected by my heart,
locked away safe in steal.
when i let you in,
i'm soon to push you away,
frightened to lose you,
careful to keep my distance,
yet long for you to stay always......
i can tell your giving up,
it's not easy for me to accept,
i know it's my fault,
i know i've changed,
i know what i gotta do to fix things.......
i'm just a child,
nothing more and nothing less,
i need you here,
now and forever,
i need my friend.....
but it's obvious you don't want to be my friend....
i'm cool with that,
just give me the chance to say bye......
i thought we were friends forever
what happened?????
soon my confusion will come to an end,
leaving me with ever lasting pain,
no understanding,
and to only be what you will leave,
a heart full of sorrow,
a girl crying on her knees.
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with what time we have left,
we'll be lucky to escape,
what great a fate,
comes our way.
we'll accept its embrace,
turn down it's terror filled face
and run with the black panthers rawwww!
By time it'll be over,
we'll go our separate ways,
but know this i will look back some day.
the great fun we had,
the times we were sad.
but when its comes around,
we'll accept its embrace,
turn down its terror filled face
and run with the black panthers rawwwww!
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well that is most of them..... i hope you enjoy please comment on what you think as i said i don't care if its negative just as long as its honest.
xoxo SUPERchick Lost In Time
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